We’ve just completed our latest workshop for We Keep Coming Back at Aluna Theatre in Toronto. Thank you to all who joined us for our showing on December 1st and shared their thoughts about the work. We’re now preparing for our final workshop in May and our premiere production during Krakow’s Jewish Culture Festival this July.

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Sue Balint is an independent arts manager who currently collaborates with selfconscious, Aluna Theatre, Modern Times Stage Company, SummerWorks, and princess productions. Recent work includes producing SummerWorks’ innaugural Progress and Aluna Theatre/Modern Times’ co-production of Blood Wedding (Bodas de Sangre) (six Dora awards). Sue is a founding ensemble member of Theatrefront, and served as Producer for their Dora award-winning play cycle, The Mill (Parts 1-4). She also previously worked with visual artist/architect Philip Beesley, managing development and communications for his studio’s domestic and international installations. Sue’s work as a playwright/dramaturge includes fforward (two Dora nominations) and RETURN: The Sarajevo Project (five Dora nominations), both with Theatrefront. Other collaborations include DNA Theatre (The Large Glass), The Theatre Centre (Body Geometry: The Seventh Angel), Goossun Art-illery (HamletZar) and R. Murray Schaffer’s Patria Music Projects (Asterion). Sue holds degrees in Theatre and Religion (Queen’s University) and Journalism (King’s College).

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BookofJudith-WEB-3399 We are incredibly sad to report the death of our dear friend and collaborator, Judith. A. Snow.  Her life was celebrated in a lovely funeral and memorial on June 6, 2015 at the Metropolitan United Church in Toronto.

Our collaboration with Judith, and her philosophies became the foundation for our company. She transformed the way that we thought about inclusion — for people, and for unimaginable narratives.

Judith Snow changed the world. We love and miss her very much.

Below is a link to a short interview Michael gave on CBC’s Metro Morning remembering Judith.


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October 29, 1949 – May 31, 2015

BookofJudith-WEB-3399We are incredibly sad to report the death of our dear friend and collaborator, Judith. A. Snow.  Her life was celebrated in a lovely funeral and memorial on June 6, 2015 at the Metropolitan United Church in Toronto.

Our collaboration with Judith, and her philosophies became the foundation for our company. She transformed the way that we thought about inclusion — for people, and for unimaginable narratives.

Below is a link to a short interview Michael gave on CBC remembering Judith.  This is followed by her obituary and a memorial article written in The Globe and Mail.


JUDITH SNOW October 29, 1949 – May 31, 2015 The colours of Judith Snow were vibrant, flagrant, unabashedly in the forefront of the forefront: a social inventor, a trailblazer, a relentless advocate for inclusion. She championed communities that welcome diversity, including all persons with disabilities, especially people who do not speak in voice, as full contributing citizens in communities. She was an unstoppable dreamer, an courageous instigator, motivator and challenger. She was a visionary, a muse, an author, a speaker, an actor, an artist. Born with quadriplegia, Judith advocated for and attained the first ever government funding to pay directly for her attendant care. This precedent in Canada and the world has liberated people around the globe. She inspired and founded the Joshua Committee – to liberate herself – and this led to the creation of Circles of Support around the world. She was a founding member of the Marsha Forest Centre and of the Individualized Funding Coalition for Ontario. She created Canada’s first post-secondary learning support program at York University. As an author, trainer and educator for over 40 years, she travelled widely: the US, UK, Europe, the Caribbean and Canada. Judith’s impact remains worldwide. As a faculty member with the Asset-Based Community Development Institute and a founder and leader of numerous community-based and non-profit organizations, Judith has supported and led community development locally and internationally. In 2003, Judith developed Laser Eagles Art Guild and discovered that she was a visual artist herself. Judith inspired us all with her incredible gifts of spirit, wisdom, skill, revolutionary insight and unquenchable positive energy. She was a powerful, energetic instigator of community action and peace. Judith is forever a doorway opening to a world that sees different, looks different, thinks different, is different, embraces difference. She was funny, a dear friend, a philosopher, a leader. Her entire life was dedicated to the vision: “There really is no disability: People are always contributing something. The work is to see the value and potential in what they are contributing and build that through relationships into community and economic opportunities.” And in Judith speak: “”You think too small.”


Judith Snow: Advocate for inclusion  was ‘a visionary’


Special to The Globe and Mail


Although Judith Snow suffered from a condition that eventually denied her all movement below the neck, she had a full life as a writer, actor, artist, Communist, educator, nature enthusiast and an internationally renowned champion for inclusion.

Her friend Jack Pearpoint, publisher of Inclusion Press and former president of Frontier College, believes her life itself was an inspiration. “She was officially dead for 35 years according to the medical profession. She had been told she couldn’t live past 30. She blew them all out of the water.”

Ms. Snow, who suffered from spinal muscular atrophy, disliked the word “disability” so much that she once told a journalist she preferred the word “freak” to “disabled.” Her objection to the D-word arose from the belief that we all have limitations – even those who are not “disabled” – nevertheless, we all have gifts and contributions to make.

Ms. Snow died of a heart attack at the age of 65 in her Toronto apartment on May 31. Just an hour earlier, she had been working at her computer. The night before, she had been out attending a friend’s 65th birthday party, then stayed up until 4 a.m. playing cards with her attendant.

Judith Snow was born in Oshawa, Ont., on Oct. 29, 1949, to Rita (née Lock) and Edwin Randolph Snow. She was the third of four children. Her parents convinced a local school to accept Judith, who as a child was not able to walk, in a system that once insisted it had no place for someone like her.

That was the first act of defiance for a woman whose advocacy would eventually mean so much to others. Ms. Snow’s father told her that once upon a time someone like her would have been strangled in the rural British village where he came from because she would have been unable to do farm work. Ms. Snow says she asked him why he hadn’t strangled her. He replied that perhaps the point of her life was to find out.

Though Ms. Snow had lost all remaining, limited use of her limbs following spinal surgery in 1972, she completed a master’s degree in clinical psychology at Toronto’s York University in 1976. After graduation, her mobility deteriorated further and by 1978 she was operating her wheelchair with her thumb. She was relegated to a nursing home, but it could not meet the needs of the ambitious and peripatetic Ms. Snow, who was still running a centre for handicapped students that she had started at university.

In 1979, with her health and spirits failing, Ms. Snow revolted. She refused to return to the nursing home, taking refuge first with friends in university housing and then at the home of Jack Pearpoint and Marsha Forest, a married couple who would become close friends. The couple created the first “Joshua Committee,” a circle of friends dedicated to enabling Ms. Snow to live independently. The name came from Ms. Snow’s assertion that they would blow down walls. Through concerted political pressure they managed to obtain an Ontario Order-in-Council, providing a modicum of support for Ms. Snow to live on her own and continue her work.

Mr. Pearpoint said that Ms. Snow’s determination, “infinitely broadened the range of choices available to someone like her.” He said that opportunities for individual care – a focus of her campaign – are “dramatically improved and [have] many miles to go.”

The actions of the Joshua Committee were a launching pad for Ms. Snow’s career as an activist and educator. Through her association with the Toronto Summer Institute on Inclusion, Community and Diversity, based originally at McGill University, in Montreal, and now in Toronto, as well as the Asset-Based Community Development Institute of Northwestern University, in Chicago, Ms. Snow became a leader in a movement bent on creating opportunity. The work took her across Canada, Europe, the United States and the Caribbean.

In the summer of 1982, she met Mother Teresa at a Toronto event to promote world peace and nuclear disarmament.

On several visits to Denver, Ms. Snow met with 10-year-old Annie Green, a girl afflicted with an organic brain syndrome. The girl’s father, Mike Green, a community organizer, said that Ms. Snow helped him to see his daughter as a person, “who could have her own dream for her life” rather than someone suffering from limitations. Ms. Snow became Annie’s godmother.

Mr. Pearpoint summed up Ms. Snow’s method: “She believed everyone had a gift. What we have to do is figure out what the gift is and how to assist that person in making a contribution. Her gifts and capacities existed in a whole different frame because they came out of the mouth of someone who wasn’t supposed to be there.”

Doris McWhorter, director of the Education Research and Evaluation Strategy Branch at Ontario’s Ministry of Education, who met Ms. Snow in the 1980s, claimed, “When Judith told the story of her life, it was transformational. She had the gift of speech and the ability to communicate with a wide range of people. She was a visionary.”

Ms. Snow was interested in all spiritual expressions of love and inclusive community. Mr. Green said she was enthralled to learn more about the culture of the Navajo, whose communities they visited. Ms. Snow was also a member of the Communist Party of Canada (Marxist-Leninist) and stood as a party candidate in both federal and provincial elections. She was never elected.

Ms. Snow was a curious, demanding, generous, humorous and adventurous person. Ms. McWhorter said, “she sometimes took risks that scared the rest of us.” Ms. Snow canoed on the Madawaska and St. Lawrence Rivers in Ontario while strapped to a thwart, explored the Colorado Rockies while being transported in a hammock strung between poles – a contraption Ms. Snow dubbed her “Cleopatra chair” – and was once tugged up to the very top of a climbing wall aboard a cruise ship to espy the horizon. Ms. Snow’s friend Sandy Gray, now retired after a career in community work in Canada and abroad, said “Judith played all the odds and won.” The slide show presented at Ms. Snow’s funeral portrayed her wearing a variety of wigs and costumes and toking on a joint.

Ms. Snow assisted playwright Michael Rubenfeld in staging the 2009 play The Book of Judith, which was presented as a mock revival show with a chorus in a tent outside the Canadian Mental Health Association in Toronto. Mr. Rubenfeld conceived the work while struggling to respond to a question posed by one of Ms. Snow’s attendants: “Can you find Judith a lover?” In his discomfort with the question, Mr. Rubenfeld determined he could not find a lover, but he would write a play that addressed prejudice about the so-called disabled. Ms. Snow appeared in the acclaimed production.

Ms. Snow’s influence also extended to technology when she participated in experiments for the creation of devices to assist people like her. As an adult she lost the ability to move her right thumb to control her chair. She participated in the development of a “sip and puff” system that allows quadriplegics to command a chair by emitting Morse code through a mouth tube. She also helped form the Laser Eagles Art Guild, which assists those without the physical capacity to hold a brush to paint by laser. In 2011, the Royal Ontario Museum held an exhibition of Ms. Snow’s paintings.

“Judith wanted to explore her artistic life,” Ms. McWhorter said, “She wanted to evolve.” Mr. Pearpoint added, “She always knew she was an artist, but she had been told her whole life she couldn’t be. She discovered, ‘of course I can.’”

Mr. Green said, “Judith didn’t work on disability, she worked on community.”

Ms. Snow leaves her siblings: Ian Randolph Snow, Rosemary Anne Malo and James (Jim) Edwin Snow.

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We concluded our two-week residency in the Kana Theatre with a public showing of the play in-progress. Our presentation launched the new artistic season at the theatre and gathered quite a lot of media attention. After the showing we had the pleasure of speaking to our first Polish audience during a talk-back, and were incredibly moved with the important and meaningful conversation that ensued.

To find out more about the show click here

Here several selected mentions of the show (of over 30):


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WKCP in the Kana Program
Elizabeth Kantor
Sarah and Michael with Janek Tarkowski (Artistic Director) entering the Kana Theatre

Thank you to the Kana Theatre and your amazing support, which made our residency with you so satisfying and fruitful. Special shout out to Janek, Nika, Tomek, Tomek, Tomek, Ewa, and Weronika. We look forward to coming back!


After surviving the holocaust, Mary Berchard’s family moved from Poland to Sweden where she was born. They then immigrated to Canada in 1951, where she grew up and eventually had a son, Michael. 65 years later, with their relationship feeling deeply disconnected, the two decide to return to Poland for the first time in the hopes of exploring their lost Polish identity and use it as catalyst in their desire to reconnect to each other.

Unbeknownst to them, this journey would reveal a parallel narrative occurring in the third post-war generation of Poles, that has many of them equally seeking a reconnection with lost Jewish identities.

We Keep Coming Back tells the true story of the journey between Mary and Michael back to their country of origin and how the intersection with these new contemporary Polish narratives contributed to the unraveling and reconstruction of their own identity narrative. In the course of their exploration, undertaken with collaborators Sarah and Katka, a new and unexpected story is born.


Created by Michael Rubenfeld and Sarah Garton Stanley with Mary Berchard and Katka Reszke-Grünberg

Design and Technical Collaboration by Cam Davis, Teresa Przybylski, Lyon Smith, Emilie Aubin, Elizabeth Kantor and Aga Nowak

Producing contributions by Evelyn Tauben and Magda Koralewska

Produced by Self Conscious Theatre

Residency presented with support from Kana TheatreThe Consulate General of the Republic of Poland in Toronto, and The Collaborations at Canada’s National Arts Centre English Theatre.

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Book of Judith in Whitby
The Choir
Judith Snow
Michael Rubenfeld
Michael and Sarah
Alex Bulmer
Alex & Michael

In June 2014, selfconcious organized its fifth run of the Book of Judith in the Abilities Centre in Whitby. The showing was accompanied by Accessing the Arts Symposium exploring accessibility in the performing arts. Through the symposium we intended to further activate the conversation central to The Book of Judith’s core message of inclusion. Through panels, discussions, and keynotes  presented by artists, arts professionals and organizations committed to incorporating inclusive thinking and practice into their programming we aimed to contribute to the conversation about a more diverse, accessible arts community in Canada.

The Book of Judith was produced by Selfconscious Theatre in partnership with Abilities Centre and The Theatre Centre. Generous support provided by Canada Council for the ArtsThe Ontario Trillium Foundation, and Ontario Arts Council.

Accessing the Arts Symbosium was realized by Selfconscious Theatre and Abilities Centre with generous support from the Equity Office of the Canada Council for the Arts.


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mothermothermother in the Art Gallery of Ontario
Michael Rubenfeld & Mary Berchard (mother)
Natasha Greenblatt & Pancakes

On May 1st, 2014 we presented mothermothermother in the Art Gallery Ontario

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“Theatre has proven to be a more powerful venue than advocacy for having ordinary people understand, experience and choose to be inclusive – to welcome diversity into their own lives.” — Judith Snow

On behalf of Selfconscious Theatre and Abilities Centre, we want to thank all our sponsors for your generous support of THE BOOK OF JUDITH and the June 2014 finale production in Whitby, Ontario!

By contributing to our Indiegogo campaign, you have helped further the conversation around accessibility and inclusive thinking in our communities…

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